Monthly Archives: October 2013

Don’t Get Caught By The Blob!

Continuing the exercise I have set myself to re-read and blog my results from reading Creating A Bug Free Mind and Using A Bug Free Mind by Andy Shaw.

In chapter 12 of Creating A Bug Free Mind, Andy poses the question: “Who would want positive change?” You would think the answer was obvious. He goes on to answer the question with one of the most profound aspects of the whole bug free mind process as far as I am concerned.

“Well positive change would threaten your identity as a hard done by, depressed, or angry person. So to prevent this, you will then deny, ignore, or sabotage the positive change in your life. This of course is a normal phenomenon and it is of course totally insane.”

The first time I read this it was like looking in a mirror and definitely not liking what I saw. I actually got quite angry but it took a little while to understand the anger. It was directed inward at myself obviously but the main reason was that for years I understood the fact that I was self sabotaging myself and my success. But I couldn’t see where the root of this was. Despite having read tons of personal development books I couldn’t see that it was the very thought process itself that was the sabotage. It was the Law of Creation in action – but not the way I wanted it to be. I realized slowly that I had been stabbing myself in the foot all these years.  Setting mighty goals and intentions and then procrastinating or abandoning them after starting them. My identity was being threatened. “Oh well you’ve had a hard life Ger, a tough upbringing, you deserve to feel sorry for yourself – don’t bother with that change, he doesn’t know what he’s talking about, he doesn’t know what you’ve been through.”

When I was about 30 I decided to take up running to get healthy. I got all pumped up and did my stretches and went for my first run – straight down to the pub!

So I’ve had lots of hesitant starts and stops – lots of great ideas and great intentions, very few of them got off the ground. Don’t get me wrong, in the overall scheme of things I’ve had a good life so far compared to many others and I am grateful for everything that is positive in my life. And there are lots of things for me to be thankful for. I recognize that I am powerful, that I create my own reality good or bad. I am well on the way to creating a better life for myself and my family now. I know I am on the right road.

I recently read a blog entry from one of my other friends on ABFM from about a week and a half ago. It had a big effect on me. The main thing I got from it was that this person recognized early on (as did I) that Andy’s books and processes work, they are the real deal and there is no point in going elsewhere for a magic bullet. It doesn’t exist. She then spent 2 years on the process of de-bugging her mind before creating a new life design. Her design happened very quickly after that and in full. That really encouraged me to stop being impatient with the rate of progress. I am moving along at exactly the right pace for me to fully absorb all that these precious books have to offer and I encourage anyone who reads this to do the same.

Until Next Time
All Things Considered.
Gerry Murphy

My Goal is not to force change, but to be change

Continuing the exercise I have set myself to re-read and blog my results from reading Creating A Bug Free Mind and Using A Bug Free Mind by Andy Shaw.

I haven’t made a blog entry for the last 3 months or so and I suppose I should give some explanation. After all I started the blog in order to be accountable to myself and others regarding following the Way and documenting the results. The reason Andy Shaw says we should do this in the first place is to shorten the absorption curve to getting rid of all the bugs from our minds. It is just over a year since I first started reading the books. I became a little frustrated at the slow pace of progress despite the many signs of improvements in my life generally. I realize now that I was making a statement to the universe that it wasn’t happening quickly enough – and guess what? The universe is acting as if that is exactly what I want!

For the record I haven’t stopped reading them, or listening to the audios (I have them in the car and I listen to them most of the time while commuting). I am currently on my 5th read through the first book. It never ceases to amaze me the layers and levels that these work on. Reading the chapters now about accepting and surrendering for the 5th time I am getting more from them than ever. After the 2nd time I thought to myself, “I have this now, I get it – I don’t need to read it anymore” – Not so, not so at all! The next thing I knew I was “worrying” that I wasn’t getting it – that this was going to be another disappointment, another dark alley with a lot of time and money spent and wasted. Thankfully I recovered from that fairly quickly and I “know” I am on the right road, no matter how fast or slow it happens as long as I remain in the now and resist negativity.

Woman meditating.The temptation to become negative and remain in negativity was and sometimes still is strong. It is important for me to remember that all negativity is an illusion created by the limited mind to protect and defend itself. It is contagious; it creates unhappiness and spreads quickly because it fears change. When I read this for the 5th time I honestly think it was the 1st time I actually got it and began to realize its subtlety and the ease with which it can take over. Andy says that negativity equals a loss of energy, which equals wasting your life. It is our creative energy that makes our life happen, that is when change happens and when we embrace changes our world changes for the better. I am doing my best now to remember that all change is positive, even apparent so-called negative change.

So now after the holidays and very busy periods at work I am settling in to getting some reading/listening done most days. I will now promise myself to pick up where I left off and to do the other elements as well which includes keeping the blog up to date and keeping in touch with ABFM world.

Until Next Time
All Things Considered
Gerry Murphy