Curing The World Biggest Disease and Why Worry?

negativity_glassContinuing the exercise I have set myself to re-read and blog my results from reading Creating A Bug Free Mind and Using A Bug Free Mind by Andy Shaw.

Curing the World’s Biggest Disease.

Last week I wrote about accepting what is and the challenges that brings to me. When I find myself in a negative frame of mind, angry or bored I am actually engaging in resistance, or a refusal to accept what is. I am out of sync with nature. The real problem is my ego, as it believes through negativity that it can manipulate reality and get what it wants (tantrum?). My ego thinks that being negative will attract a desirable outcome, or get rid of an undesirable one.

Negativity strengthens my ego and my ego becomes addicted to it and identifies with it. I realize that when that happens, I don’t want to let it go. And what’s more, on a deeply subconscious level, I don’t want positive change. Strange I know. I feel the inner conflict that arises when I think about a positive change – positive change just threatens my egos identity as a depressed, angry, or hard done by person. Andy Shaw says that this is quite common and unfortunately quite normal behavior in everyday negative people.

Negativity is a disease that kills life, it kills every moment it is allowed to persist and it prematurely ends life and I need to remove myself from it if I ever want to be truly happy.

I need to get over it, I have to change at this level if I am to have the life I desire, otherwise I will stay negative and in five years time I’ll be wondering why I am still here, negative with no major improvements in my life and believing that these self help systems and books don’t work. There is a question I need to ask myself in a moment of clarity, after meditation or when I am reading A Bug Free Mind and while my ego is silenced – do I really want this? Do I really want my life to improve? Am I worth the effort? Or will I go back to my comfort zone, chill out on the couch and watch repeats of Star Trek, consuming instead of creating! Fuck it NO! Up off your arse Murph and for once in your life walk the talk, you’ve been banging on about this for years and paying lip service to it. When is there going to be a better time? After Christmas? After New Year? (this reminds me of the conversations I had with myself about giving up smoking) it is easy not to change and be one of the 99% who never get there – it really is my choice.

However Andy says that if I am still intent on clinging on to my negativity then I should not make a judgment one way or another. Just become the watcher, sit silently and watch my ego’s handling of simple situations that come along. Observe how my ego is constructing arguments in such a way that now I am looking at it, they are obviously mad!

I know I am ready because I now fully realize that all negativity needs to be cut out of my life, as negativity is a disease which spreads from a very little start, it can cause massive changes of thought. I now understand that I cannot create the life I desire and also allow negativity into my life.

Why Worry?

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“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, or not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.”

Buddha

The 2nd thing that I gave a lot of thought to this week was about worrying. Worry and negativity are closely related. To know that I no longer have to worry feels wonderful and frees up my creative energy instead of having it drain away.

The Law of Attraction (Creation) says that whatever your dominant thought is becomes your reality. But if everything that happens to me ends up being the best thing that could happen anyway and if I really accept that then there really is no point in me worrying since whatever happens provides me some benefit.

Here is a direct quote from Andy that I find is very practical but also inspiring as a way to approach problems without worrying about them:

“So later today I will spend a few hours looking at the problem and deciding a course of action through it. When I have decided on that course, I will apply it. I will clearly see the desired outcome for myself and all my work will be directed towards achieving that outcome. In a way I will then detach myself from the result, as I will clearly be seeing the outcome I desire and I know that I will have done all that I can do in my power to attain that desire. If that is not enough, then it is not enough and I will not achieve the result I am looking for. Obviously this will be after several attempts and playing some pretty big cards, but if I do not achieve the result I desire then I will accept it as is and move on after drawing all the lessons I could from the situation.”

I can now recognize worry easily, and I find now that I am able to steer well clear of it most of the time. I know that I don’t want it and it helps me know what I do want. I also am grateful for it because when I do recognize it I am reminded of where my focus needs to be – on the outcome I want.

By shining a light on the worry, I see that it is an illusion and is of no benefit to me and therefore has no place in my life. If I worry, and if I allow it to grow in my mind then I am making the unconscious decision to give control of my mind back to my ego. Since I have not yet created the life I desire I now know that worrying about stuff is one of the many reasons why.

The problem is that the Law of Attraction means that when I worry I attract what I am trying to avoid – I end up living a self fulfilling prophecy – what I think about becomes my reality. I get caught out because I worried about it, and that then reinforces the future need to worry more deeply … this circle must be broken!

I now know worrying is a choice! There is a tendency to think that I am powerless – but I am not – I now know that I am powerful. This does work… once I accept that I am responsible for everything in my life up to this point. With acceptance of what is, comes absolute power.

It is my choice – to be powerful or powerless… tough decision 

I can use this knowledge to do many things, so now I no longer let my current bank balance be my judgment of what my future bank balance will look like. Worrying about what others think of me serves me in no way, and if it does not serve me, since nothing stands still, then it must be hurting me.

Once again whatever I give my dominant attention to becomes my reality. Worrying about something = that’s what I’m asking for.

So I now know that in order to ensure success in any endeavor, there must be no negativity and no worry. This means that as I gradually change the thought processes involved and slowly eliminate negativity and worry there is a growing realization that there is a certainty about what I am doing, what I am creating with my thoughts. A bit scary until I start seeing small results which I am. So why worry? If I worry, then I am asking it to happen. With practice I will stop and observe what the thought process is and correct it.

It’s been an interesting week, I’ve learned a lot but I feel I am only scratching the surface.

Until next time
All things Considered
Gerry

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