The Perfect Competitor

Continuing the exercise I have set myself to re-read and blog my results from reading Creating A Bug Free Mind and Using A Bug Free Mind by Andy Shaw.

I_love_myselfWell it’s been another fantastic week of discovery, though not without its challenges (I was about to put in ‘as usual’ which is my old thinking). A comment was made on my last blog post which made a big impact on me after spending some time thinking about it. It was to the effect that, when re-living the past or writing about it, to do it as if it had happened differently i.e. the way I would have liked it to happen. Even though so much similar is said in the book, sometimes it’s how someone says something or the words they use just resonate more. I always considered that I should do this for the future only – I never thought that this could be used to heal the past. So, thank you Rick. This has made me very aware of just how much I need to change my language both when speaking with others and also when writing blog entries and such, and more importantly, when talking about the past as well as the present or future.

This coincided with my studying of chapter 8 of UABFM, which went on to describe things that align very closely to this idea such as, I mustn’t continue to think, “I’ll be happy when…” as I will never be happy. If I am waiting to be happy then I will get more of… waiting to be happy. It has always been about me being conscious of a lack of something, but the real truth is there is nothing to get – there is no lack!

Buying things I thought would make me happy, usually has a very short shelf life. I am coming to understand that nothing outside of myself can make me happy, though sometimes that feels like a lonely road. I know it must come from within and sometimes it seems that there isn’t enough in there to accomplish that and so my natural instinct is to look outside of myself for this – imagining that I will someday hit on the right thought or the right frame of mind and come into conscious contact with the universe and all will be well thereafter. Intellectually I know this is not the way it works and I am trying to continue to accept what is, surrender to it and be happy with who I am now. I know I have to overcome the fact that I am unhappy with the way things are because if I don’t I will continue to attract more of…..unhappy with the way things are.

So Andy’s recommended thought processes in this case is as follows:

• I have what makes me happy, I am happy where I am and with what I have got, I am eagerly looking forward to achieving more
• I have a lot, I will always have more than I need
• I am happy now, I will be happy when I get more of what I desire

lionsAs the title of the chapter suggests, the battle is constantly with myself and no one else. My ego is the perfect competitor for my attention as it has had a long innings and knows all the nooks and crannies to hide in and come out at the first sign of consciousness coming to the fore and beat me up with guilt, doubt, fear and worry.

I will only be happy when I have freed myself from wanting anything.

Until next time
All Things Considered
Gerry

8 Responses to The Perfect Competitor

  • Gerry says:

    Karin, I think you’ve nailed it. Thanks.

  • Karin Klemenz says:

    A memory will be nothing more than a memory-without attached emotions-once it has been realized that it is worse-less to our future.
    Once this state has been reached you have accepted and surrendered to that. At that point there is no need for pain any longer-after all, pain is an illusion of the ego. And as pain is an illusion-there is no emotional impact and we can describe a past experience in whatever words we want once we have accepted the truth of what the past really is. We only have the now. And when this moment has past-there is ‘now’ again. And another ‘now’.
    So ‘why’ living in the past? The ego lives in the past and creates the future from that past -it cannot live in the now. As long as we have attached emotions to the past we are living in the past and not in the ‘now’.

    The past will never return unless we keep on living there and imagining the same things over and over again which will lead us to the same future that we had in the past as we can only create in the now.
    But you right, you have to come to your own conclusion as it will come when the time is right for that 🙂

  • Gerry says:

    Thanks for your insight Karin. I am having to think quite a lot about this one. It makes sense to me when I think about the Law of Attraction (Creation). Yes, the past is the past but I was thinking that the memory of the past could be changed or softened as to have less impact and therefore the law of attraction would attract less pain attached to the memories. I will continue to ponder this. I agree if it doesn’t feel right for you then don’t do it.

  • Karin Klemenz says:

    @ Martine, everyone is different so if something doesn’t feel right for you and as long as there are other options, try a different option.
    I personally would be careful to rewrite the past as if would have happened differently
    The past is the past and cannot be undone. To write it in a different way would be like lying to myself and giving my ego more power.Because writing the past as if it would have happened differently, means non-acceptance of what is (or what happened in the case). Therefore the bug will stay or change it’s form…

  • Gerry says:

    Hi Declan, contented positivity sounds good to me. I also like your comparison to edit memory files. It all sounds a bit like taking a classic album and “digitally re-mastering” it. Hmm…..

  • Declan says:

    I’ve always figured that the past is stored in memory files and files are often a lot better for a bit of re-editing… I always have a difficulty with this whole idea of pursuing happiness. For me happiness, like sadness, is a surge of emotion rather than a sustainable state of mind. Let’s face it, if you get hit by a truck you can’t expect to be happy nor if your dog gets hit by a truck can you expect to remain sad. For me the ideal would be a sort of contented positivity as my baseline from which happiness and sadness could play their roles out… I hasten to add that by contented I don’t mean static. I think striving for something worthwhile gives fuel to life, but contentment in the sense that I feel – as PG Wodehouse put it – “God is in his place and all right with the world”, metaphorically speaking, of course and with no implied endorsement of God’s gender, existence nor any ‘insider’ knowledge of where his/her place is…

  • Gerry says:

    Totally understand about the re-writing the past bit. I’m “testing” it at the moment on some less important things so if it doesn’t work at least I won’t be too disappointed.

  • Ger, this really resonates with me. I’ve been ruminating over the concept for some time now – being happy right now and toying with the idea of being free from wanting anything in order to be happy. Yes, I can enjoy imagining the thrill of lying on a warm beach with a pina colada in my hand and I anticipate doing that in the future, but whether that event comes to pass or not, it has no bearing on me being happy within myself right now – and now is the only time that matters. I still have difficulty with the notion of re-writing past events and will have to think a little bit more about that one!

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